The more disturbing things I've remembered lately have been terrible on a personal level, as opposed to anything catastrophic. Things like what I did to Jill, or shooting Rebecca simply to prove to Chris that I was willing to. I've remembered doing some hideous things to someone I don't know with Plagas, using the parasites to mutate them in horrible ways.
They're terrible, and in some ways they're more disturbing than what I was trying to do overall because they feel much more personal. But I can rationalize it as only having been one person instead of many. That's repulsive and I know it, but it helps with managing it.
I think I can understand. It sounds incredibly difficult to deal with, so you have to do what you can in order to manage it. Thinking about it like that is certainly not great, but at least it helps.
It's never too much for me to handle, however. I'm doing well most of the time; I'm content with what I have. So you don't have to concern yourself too much with things like that.
Spending time with you has been helping; work has been helping as well. I like staying late sometimes; it gives me something to do that's repetitive, as well as some time to myself to just consider things.
[He doesn't answer immediately; for a long moment he's gone kind of weird and still, the sort of thing that implies he's...not precisely all there, but eventually it passes easily enough, leaving him seeming a little out of it but not troubled.
Memory again, from the look of it.]
I... Sorry. It wasn't anything terrible, but that's been happening a bit more frequently lately. Picking up again.
Some person that I used to know. One of my contacts on the black market; his name was Ricardo Irving. He spoke like he was from...New Jersey? Boston, perhaps... Somewhere with one of those very heavy, distinctive accents, though I can't place exactly where.
I don't recall much else about him. We dealt in Plagas for a while, however.
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The more disturbing things I've remembered lately have been terrible on a personal level, as opposed to anything catastrophic. Things like what I did to Jill, or shooting Rebecca simply to prove to Chris that I was willing to. I've remembered doing some hideous things to someone I don't know with Plagas, using the parasites to mutate them in horrible ways.
They're terrible, and in some ways they're more disturbing than what I was trying to do overall because they feel much more personal. But I can rationalize it as only having been one person instead of many. That's repulsive and I know it, but it helps with managing it.
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I think I can understand. It sounds incredibly difficult to deal with, so you have to do what you can in order to manage it. Thinking about it like that is certainly not great, but at least it helps.
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It's never too much for me to handle, however. I'm doing well most of the time; I'm content with what I have. So you don't have to concern yourself too much with things like that.
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[It's light, though; he really does believe that Wesker's doing okay.]
I'm glad that it's not too much, at least.
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Things have been working out well, overall.
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It's good that things have been working out!
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Memory again, from the look of it.]
I... Sorry. It wasn't anything terrible, but that's been happening a bit more frequently lately. Picking up again.
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What did you remember?
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I don't recall much else about him. We dealt in Plagas for a while, however.
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Do you?
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[Some more than others, but still.]
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[He's fairly sure you'd want pictures of your girls, if nothing else?]
Perhaps one day Retrospec will surprise you; you never know.
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[...He's still a bit concerned about Uroboros...]
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[His free hand starts to raise before he forces it back down.]
I assume they don't have much control over that either.
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[...can he just take your hand so you're a little less tempted to do that]
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