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GUNTHER SCHWARZ

Jaeger. Leviathan's Claw owner. Not particularly pleased to be here.

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[manufactured]

[...You kind of weren't shy about saying it. A lot.

It isn't something that's been on his mind constantly, no, but it is something he's thought about; that said, though...]

Scared in what way...?

[scythegun]

[w h o o p s...]

Well, there are a lot of reasons why. I suppose what it comes down to is that his point of view is something I don't think I could ever understand and that's... well, it's terrifying. It's scary to think that he got to the point where he hated everyone and was so full of rage. I understand that what was done to him was terrible, but still...

[He shakes his head.]

I think even back then it was partially because I was afraid.

[manufactured]

...You don't have to justify it to me, you know. i understand if you hated who I used to be; I did a lot of things back then that warranted the hatred.

[...]

I'll admit that I'm concerned about feeling that way again; I don't think it's likely, but I understand what drove me to it then, and I can't say that it could never happen again here. But back then I didn't have anything left but the hatred; it wasn't a good thing, but I think in a way it's what kept me alive for so long.

I'm not saying it's nothing to be feared; I understand why you would feel that way. But I also understand why I ended up the way I was, and I can't really fault myself for it. I absolutely needed to die by the end of things, but I know why things ended that way.

[scythegun]

[Jaeger doesn't want to agree with Wesker's final statement there, but... well, deep down he does agree with it. Wesker needed to die in his past life, but he's not like that anymore. Still, it's not something he can bring himself to say, so he'll just focus on the first part.]

I sincerely hope you're never left with only hatred. I don't ever want that to happen to you.

I can't say I understand, but I know enough about it now to have a better idea of what happened and why it happened. It scares me, but I'm glad I have at least some understanding.

[manufactured]

If there's ever anything you want to know about it, to help you understand a bit better, I think I can answer questions for you.

but I understand if you don't.

[scythegun]

I appreciate it. I think I know enough to be satisfied, for now at least.

[He's honestly not sure if he wants to know more or not. It's probably for the best if he doesn't.]

[manufactured]

Of course.

[He understands, honestly...]

I remembered a bit more about what happened with Birkin, back at the training facility, but I think I've told you the basic gist of everything else.

[scythegun]

Oh? What else did you remember about it?

[manufactured]

The people in charge of the center decided that they would encourage us to fight - they wanted us to form a "rivalry", to see how we would perform under pressure and supposedly increase our productivity. I suspect it was an exercise to see which of us they were going to keep.

It didn't work; Birkin and I decided to collaborate rather than compete, and we finished what they set us to do well enough. But it was...stressful.

[...They very stupidly Power Of Friendship-ed their way through their superiors pushing them to fight, it was dumb but it worked.]

[scythegun]

I can imagine! Being forced to compete to see which of you they'd keep... they really were very cruel, weren't they? At least you managed to see it through together.

[manufactured]

...I'm fairly sure we were like that, just in general. He was far smarter than I was, actually, far more competent with regards to research. At least, that's the feeling I get, given how much I seemed to respect him.

[scythegun]

[Well, at least he had something going for him, because it sure wasn't his looks.

...Is that too mean?]

You certainly did seem to care a lot about him, at least until you left.

[manufactured]

[Oh my god, be nice...]

Of course I did.

[...Like it's really obvious? Why wouldn't he.]

[scythegun]

[never]

It's good that you had someone like that!

[...don't be a jealous bitch, don't be a jealous bitch...]

[manufactured]

...Are you all right?

[...You're kind of doing the flippant thing again. You tell him this sort of thing a lot with regards to people like Krauser, granted, but not usually this. cheerfully. um.]

[scythegun]

[goddammit, why is he so easy to read...]

Ja, I'm fine! Why, does it seem like I'm not?

[manufactured]

You're being a little...enthusiastic.

[scythegun]

[...sigh...]

It's really nothing bad. I'm just a bit jealous, I suppose! Even though there's nothing to be jealous of. It's really stupid.

[manufactured]

Jealous...?

[...]

What, of Birkin?

[scythegun]

...When you say it like that you make it sound even stupider...

[manufactured]

That isn't what I meant - I just didn't expect it for some reason.

[scythegun]

I didn't expect it either... I'm not usually the sort to get jealous!

[manufactured]

...You know I don't have any interest in him now, don't you?

[He feels the need to verify that, first and foremost, because goodness.]

If he were to be on the network I would want to talk to him, of course, but it wouldn't be due to any sort of latent interest.

[scythegun]

Well, yes, I figured as much!

[It's still good to hear though, and his gaze darts away.]

You always talk so highly of him, and I know it's because the two of you were close, but I suppose that's why I've been feeling like this.

[It's so embarrassing to admit??]

[manufactured]

[This really is awkward, for what it's worth...]

...He meant a lot to me. For several reasons, really - he was the first and only person I really remember feeling close to like that.

[Yeah, eye contact is hard, give him a moment.]

He was never interested in me in that sort of way, anyway. A lot of our interactions with others were orchestrated, but I don't doubt he loved Annette. I was...very angry with him for it, for a while.