I understand. There's nothing wrong with considering everything from a practical angle - and in some cases that might even be for the best - but it's not something I can do all the time. I'm glad you're in agreement for this.
[He tightens his grip on Wesker's hand momentarily before relaxing again.]
I'll do my best to make sure you're happy with your decision!
...You began acting differently toward me around the end of August, though I don't know if that can just be attributed to everything that happened that month.
[...You look sort of like you want to die, are you okay.]
I didn't want to say anything at that point for multiple reasons - outside of everything in my memories regarding Excella, I was also having an...interesting time with Elda at that point.
[...HE IS NO LONGER SEEING ELDA dear god he wouldn't agree to this if he were]
We came to a mutual understanding regarding the relationship at around that time - toward the end of August - though we've never properly discussed it in-depth.
[it's. complicated? he doesn't know.]
I'm still very fond of her, intensely so. But things have been better, since all of that. The nature of things has changed, at least.
[It wasn't like anything was terribly heated or anything, when it ended.]
...Along those lines, I remembered something else after our discussion that was surprisingly optimistic. I told you that I don't believe I'd had any relationships that were normal, as far as my memories go - apparently I was mistaken, with regards to that.
This happened before most of the other things I've recalled, I believe. But at one point I met a woman from eastern Europe. She had blue eyes, and the most striking red hair I'd ever seen... She had come to the States alone, and while I don't remember details regarding how we met, I do know that we were together for quite some time.
She...loved me, and she made certain that I knew that, and I did care for her - as much as I was capable, given the circumstances.
[You know. Having been raised in a murder dungeon and brainwashed to hell and back. That sort of does a number on your capacity to care for people, but there was a good faith effort put forth, apparently.]
It didn't end on terribly good terms, admittedly; there was a fight at one point, and... Well, I suppose she returned to Europe eventually, and we lost touch. I don't know what happened to her beyond that, but that's still more optimistic than anything else I've recalled regarding interpersonal relationships so far.
[...It's still a mess, but he was happy with her for a while and nobody died? That's got to count for something.]
[It's similar to something he'd said after remembering Birkin a bit more; a lot of his memories are bad, but sometimes...]
There are a few people that I'm fairly sure I liked - my coworker that I've told you about, and that person on the force that I trained; there's someone else that I've been seeing recently in all this whatnot involving the fog, and now there's this woman as well...
Sometimes I remember things involving them, and it's surprisingly pleasant for the time that it lasts. It isn't all terrible, though a good amount of it is.
Ja, you've told me that it isn't all terrible. I'm glad it isn't. You're already dealing with more than I can ever imagine, I'd hate to think that it's all unbearable.
...I'm curious about yours, you know. The people you've been remembering. You haven't mentioned much about them, other than the fact that the person in your memories treats his daughters strangely and was conspiring to start a war with what I assume is a male escort of some sort.
Actually, he might have been for all I know. Oh dear.
[ANYWAY MOVING RIGHT ALONG...]
I haven't remembered much about the people in my life, unfortunately. There's the male escort, my daughters, and... well, that's about it. The other people I've remembered all seemed to have it out for me for various reasons, I'd assume.
Well, aside from the dog I didn't like there were a group of young people who keep popping up in my memories. They're as as poorly-dressed as everyone else from my world. Then there was the older man who tried to take my head off after breaking into my house for... some reason...? I'm still not sure why he felt the need to do that.
They've been fairly entertaining, in other words!
Oh, and there's Regaey - someone I'm posing as for some reason. I'm still not sure why I was doing that or even who Regaey is supposed to be.
Well, perhaps someday all of that will fill itself in eventually. I still have a few people I've remembered that don't seem to make any sense, either, if it's any consolation to you - nowhere near as disjointedly as yours, however.
I'm sure it will make sense at some point. There's still so much I don't know about who I was or why I was acting the way I was, but I'm not too worried about it right now. I know I'm not the same person, after all!
[He's definitely got some things in common with that man, but there are more differences than similarities that he can see.]
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[He tightens his grip on Wesker's hand momentarily before relaxing again.]
I'll do my best to make sure you're happy with your decision!
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[He's fairly sure he will be, regardless of what's done from here on.]
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I'm pleased to hear you have that much faith in me! Don't worry, I won't let you down~!
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[Which, in fairness, he did say. He just never really specified what was meant by that.]
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[how long has he just been completely oblivious to all of this, is it as embarrassing as he thinks it is]
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[It only took him this long to figure it out!! Good job, Jaeger!!]
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[...You look sort of like you want to die, are you okay.]
I didn't want to say anything at that point for multiple reasons - outside of everything in my memories regarding Excella, I was also having an...interesting time with Elda at that point.
[...HE IS NO LONGER SEEING ELDA dear god he wouldn't agree to this if he were]
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[He doubts you'd agree to this if you were, but hey, it doesn't hurt to ask.]
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[it's. complicated? he doesn't know.]
I'm still very fond of her, intensely so. But things have been better, since all of that. The nature of things has changed, at least.
[...IT'S COMPLICATED, HE DOESN'T KNOW.]
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[It wasn't like anything was terribly heated or anything, when it ended.]
...Along those lines, I remembered something else after our discussion that was surprisingly optimistic. I told you that I don't believe I'd had any relationships that were normal, as far as my memories go - apparently I was mistaken, with regards to that.
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[If he sounds excited, it's because he is. Holy shit, that's such a good thing to remember? Maybe there's hope for you yet! (No.)]
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This happened before most of the other things I've recalled, I believe. But at one point I met a woman from eastern Europe. She had blue eyes, and the most striking red hair I'd ever seen... She had come to the States alone, and while I don't remember details regarding how we met, I do know that we were together for quite some time.
She...loved me, and she made certain that I knew that, and I did care for her - as much as I was capable, given the circumstances.
[You know. Having been raised in a murder dungeon and brainwashed to hell and back. That sort of does a number on your capacity to care for people, but there was a good faith effort put forth, apparently.]
It didn't end on terribly good terms, admittedly; there was a fight at one point, and... Well, I suppose she returned to Europe eventually, and we lost touch. I don't know what happened to her beyond that, but that's still more optimistic than anything else I've recalled regarding interpersonal relationships so far.
[...It's still a mess, but he was happy with her for a while and nobody died? That's got to count for something.]
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I see. I'm glad you remembered something like that even if it didn't end well; it sounds like it was a mostly normal relationship, honestly!
[What a relief to hear...]
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[It's similar to something he'd said after remembering Birkin a bit more; a lot of his memories are bad, but sometimes...]
There are a few people that I'm fairly sure I liked - my coworker that I've told you about, and that person on the force that I trained; there's someone else that I've been seeing recently in all this whatnot involving the fog, and now there's this woman as well...
Sometimes I remember things involving them, and it's surprisingly pleasant for the time that it lasts. It isn't all terrible, though a good amount of it is.
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[Well, that...started out well, anyway.]
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[...]
Actually, he might have been for all I know. Oh dear.
[ANYWAY MOVING RIGHT ALONG...]
I haven't remembered much about the people in my life, unfortunately. There's the male escort, my daughters, and... well, that's about it. The other people I've remembered all seemed to have it out for me for various reasons, I'd assume.
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The fuck was your life.]
Hopefully the latter ones were at least entertaining about it...?
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They've been fairly entertaining, in other words!
Oh, and there's Regaey - someone I'm posing as for some reason. I'm still not sure why I was doing that or even who Regaey is supposed to be.
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[He's definitely got some things in common with that man, but there are more differences than similarities that he can see.]
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