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GUNTHER SCHWARZ

Jaeger. Leviathan's Claw owner. Not particularly pleased to be here.

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[manufactured]

...That's good to know.

[...]

I do find it admirable in some ways, you know. Your ability to not be as affected by this, whether I agree with the method or not.

[scythegun]

Really? Well... Thank you.

[He's not sure what to do with that and it shows, but he's trying not to dismiss it or make it seem like he doesn't appreciate the praise.]

I'm doing my best! Things have gotten a bit easier lately, thankfully. It might be because I haven't remembered anything troubling in quite some time. Confusing, sure, but nothing that really bothers me any.

[manufactured]

It's still impressive, I think.

[...Just...saying. He's never really expressed that before.]

[scythegun]

...Thanks.

[He's not really used to being praised like this? What does he do with this.]

I really do appreciate it! I don't mean to sound like I don't. It's really nice to hear.

[manufactured]

I know what you meant.

[He generally does, really; he can't always read a room well, but with Jaeger it's easier, most of the time.]

And it's...fine. I haven't told you that before, after all.

[scythegun]

It's really high praise coming from you! I've always admired your strength when it comes to dealing with all of this, after all.

[manufactured]

...I don't know if it's strength, so much as not knowing how else I'm supposed to handle this.

[That's probably the most honest he's been about this sort of thing.]

I continue on and try to keep everything as normal as possible, because what else am I supposed to do? It isn't as though I have any other options.

I don't know if that can truly be considered strength or not. But I do appreciate the sentiment.

[scythegun]

I think it does require a certain amount of strength to keep going. Sure, there may not be any other option, but I doubt I could do it half as well as you do. Some of my memories have been bad, but most of them are just confusing. It makes it a little easier to distance myself from it, I suppose. If I had a lot of memories that bothered me... well, I don't know how I'd be handling that.

[manufactured]

I...

[...He isn't really sure how to word what he wants to say; give him a moment and he'll work it out, it's just...one of those things he does.]

...The memories do bother me, but the more of them I receive, the more I feel as though I understand them. Which should likely be troubling in and of itself, but I can't say that it is, not entirely.

[is that fucked up, he thinks it might be fucked up.]

[scythegun]

[...yeah, that's a little fucked up, buddy.]

Well, if it works for you! I can't really say anything about that because so little of what I remember actually connects, but maybe it'll be the same for me as well once I remember more!

[manufactured]

Do you want to understand like that?

[...you are trying your best

like he's pretty sure the fucked up part is that he shouldn't be understanding shit like...everything he did to excella

and yet here he is

but he really does appreciate the attempt]

[scythegun]

[HE TRIES SO HARD, WESKER...]

I don't know, honestly. Some part of me really does think it would be good to have at least some understanding of why I acted the way I did... but I don't know if that's really what I want, if that makes sense.

[manufactured]

...You want comprehension, then, but not understanding. Something like that?

[There is a Difference, as far as he's concerned.]

[scythegun]

[Jaeger considers that for a long moment before nodding.]

Ja, I think so. Understanding exactly what was going through my head back then would put us too close, I think.

[manufactured]

I can see where it might.

[And from the sound of it, he does; he understands why Jaeger fears it, why he doesn't want it, and Wesker supposes that to some extent he still feels that way himself. But he's been...more accepting of it lately, he can tell that much already. Still troubled, but not in denial or wanting to fight it much.

And that doesn't bother him as much as it probably should.]

[scythegun]

Of course, I don't know that for sure!

[LOOK HE'S TRYING HERE, but he's pretty sure you're just a little crazy here.]

There's only one way to find out, and I'm sure I'll reach that point sooner or later.

[manufactured]

[...Just a little.

That said, though...]

...I meant what I said before. If it begins to trouble you, I'll do what I can for you.

[Because at the very least, he does know that the thought of that happening tends to bother you.]

[scythegun]

...Thank you, Albert. I really appreciate it.

[He's settled again now, at least.]

[manufactured]

[...]

I really would prefer that things remain this way for as long as possible. But in the event that they don't, I don't intend to simply give up.

I'll do what I can to remain close to you, for as long as you want me to.

[scythegun]

[Ah, that's...]

Thank you. I'm not sure I can really express just how much that means to me. I don't ever want to lose this.

[manufactured]

[He's quiet for a moment at that; god, he's still really bad at this.]

I don't either.

[scythegun]

Obviously I can't speak for the future, but right now I can't imagine ever wanting to leave your side. So... no matter what happens, I'm prepared to fight for this, for as long as I'm able to.

[He tightens his grip on Wesker's hand again.]

[manufactured]

...Then that should be enough for us. Knowing that we're willing to do that, should the necessity arise, but until then we should enjoy what we have.

[Right...? He's fairly sure that's how this works.]

[scythegun]

Yes, exactly. I'm really glad you see it my way!

[He laughs a little once that's out there, though it sounds sort of relieved. He was so damn sure Wesker was going to turn him down, after all.]