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...I want to believe that.

[He can feel himself tensing up as he says it, though; give him a moment.]

It's difficult to reconcile, however. And it seems that all of this - everything he was talking about - it's all happening again with Retrospec. Having thoughts planted in my head and changed around at will, so I'll become the person they want me to be...

Its troubling, I suppose.

[...That's an understatement. That is such an understatement.]

[That is such an understatement.]

It's terrifying, really. I obviously don't have the exact same experiences and I'm still scared of what they'll do. But for you... I can see why that would bother you so much. I'm so sorry. But... it's still possible that we won't end up becoming exactly like the person we were in our memories. That's the hope I cling to, anyway.

Again, I do want to believe that.

[He isn't making eye contact, however.]

I suppose I owe you some sort of apology - this isn't the sort of thing that should be discussed with people, you shouldn't have to handle anything of the sort.

Well, it's true that I have no idea what to do with most of it... but I'd prefer it if you tell me what's wrong. I may not be able to do anything to help, but I can at least listen. I personally find it's better to talk about the things that are bothering me, after all.

[...When he can get you to actually talk about it, anyway. But you know what, he's not going to be that kind of asshole today; that can stay in his head where it belongs.]

Sometimes it helps, in its own way. Regardless, I don't expect you to know what to do with it; I don't imagine that most people would.

[Well. True. But he's trying to be better about that!!]

I'd be a little surprised if anyone knew what to do with it, honestly! It's a lot just to hear; I can't imagine how it would be to remember that.

I'll stay for as long as you want me to, so don't worry about that. I'll do what I can for you.

[For as long as he can.]

...I know you will.

[There's no arrogance in it, nor is there any sort of expectation or entitlement behind it; he knows that Jaeger will take care of him, in whatever way he sees fit to do that.

He isn't sure what to think of the notion that he's all right with that.]

I should be all right eventually. I just need some time to ensure it.

You always do find a way to make sure you're fine, but it's okay if you aren't for awhile.

[Even if it's a long while, it's fine. Wesker's obviously remembered something really bad, especially if he can't talk about it.]

...You keep telling me that.

[He sounds as though he's not certain he believes it.]

You sound like you don't believe me. Do you think I'm wrong?

I don't know.

[He isn't sure how to even begin going about discussing this, or if he really even wants to at all, but...]

...I've always been responsible for myself. My father - [you know, the adopted one, not the biologically paternal shitshow] - generally left me to my own business, to sort through my own problems. That doesn't mean that he was unkind to me, because that isn't the case, but I manage my own issues, and if I'm not able to then I should figure out why and correct it.

[He...really isn't accustomed to the idea of letting someone else handle it, or being taken care of in any way, let's put it that way.]

[Jaeger nods at that, though it still takes him a moment to figure out what to say in response.]

...I do think it's important to work yourself out eventually. But it's okay to let yourself be upset for awhile. Sometimes just letting yourself hurt or be angry for a bit will make it easier to work through the issue. At least, that's how it's always been in my experience.

It doesn't have to be the sort of thing you show anyone if you really hate the idea of it, but I do think it could help.

[He's quiet for a long moment after that's out there; he seems to be considering it, genuinely, which is likely a good sign.]

...I'll try to do that, then. Though I don't know how well it will work for me.

[That's definitely a good sign! Jaeger nods a bit at Wesker's words.]

It might not seem very productive at first, but I think it'll be good for you to at least try it. I'll be here if you need someone to vent to, of course.

[But he's pretty sure Wesker's going to want to do this on his own.]

[...]

Perhaps I'll take you up on it, once I've had some time to think it over.

[He...honestly isn't even sure where to start, but it's one of those things where he isn't entirely sure how to ask and he isn't about to, either.]

Of course, Albert. I'm here to help!

[...]

Thank you, by the way. For coming to me with this. I suppose that might be a bit of a strange thing to say, but I did tell you that I want to know when you're having difficulties with memories and whatnot. I'll stay for as long as you want me to, so don't worry about that.

[Oh.]

Of course, Jaeger.

[...]

...I'll be able to talk to you about it eventually, should you really want to know. It's a lot to take in, however; I'll warn you of that much now.

[His answer isn't immediate, but it is confident.]

Of course I want to know. I want to understand what you're going through, after all.

[He might not be able to perfectly understand since he's not going through anything quite as bad as Wesker is, but it'll give him a better idea of what he's looking at.]

But there's no rush, ja? If you can talk about it someday, I'd certainly like that.

[HE'S TRYING OKAY.]

[...He knows...]

It's hardly fair of me to not tell you, and if anything it's likely in your best interest to know.

I'd just prefer not to for now. You know that talking about things sometimes tends to make it...a bit more difficult to handle, overall.

[It means you have to deal with it and all.]

Ja, I know. I'm not expecting to be able to handle this one very well, but I still think it's important to know. But for now don't worry about it. You've only just remembered it; you still need time for it to sink in, right?

[He just hopes it doesn't get worse once it does sink in fully.]

Yes, exactly.

[...]

Either way, my thoughts haven't changed regarding the answers I'm finding. As terrible though it may be, I still believe that it's ultimately better that I know.

I understand. I'm still not sure how I feel about that, honestly. It's probably good that you're still looking for those answers, though.

What aren't you sure about...?

Wanting to see more of these memories to figure out who I was. I suppose I'm a bit afraid of what I'll end up with.

[Starting a war is one thing, but who knows just how deep this rabbit hole goes?]

...You know that what you're offering me extends both ways, don't you? If you need someone to discuss it with and all.

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