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GUNTHER SCHWARZ

Jaeger. Leviathan's Claw owner. Not particularly pleased to be here.

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[manufactured]

...Believe me, I wasn't expecting it, either.

[HE...HE UNDERSTANDS...]

Apparently I was in charge of some sort of specialized unit. Special Tactics and Rescue Services. [He gestures vaguely at the engraving on the gun. S.T.A.R.S.] Alpha Team was apparently mine; I held the rank of captain at the time, I believe.

[scythegun]

Really! My, I certainly wouldn't have expected that sort of thing from you, but that's an interesting occupation! What else did you remember about it?

[manufactured]

Unfortunately, not much. But the fact remains that that's possibly the sanest thing I've remembered so far.

[He does remember that something may have been...wrong with it, in some ways, but no worse than anything he's doing here in terms of what's ethical and what isn't.

It sort of goes without saying, though, that he's pleased with it in some way - because someone who was in an occupation like that surely can't be completely terrible, despite all the other memories he has indicating that he probably deserves hell rather than reincarnation, if that's truly what this is.]

[scythegun]

It sounds like a nice thing to remember after the other things you've told me!

[And the things you haven't told him, which are still bugging him, but he's not going to press.]

Don't tell me you have any interest in police work now, though...?

[He's clearly teasing.]

[manufactured]

Absolutely none.

[Oh, come on...]

I don't remember much of the actual work that I was doing with it, which is...odd, but it seems that whomever created these memories I'm recalling didn't stay with one occupation all his life, either.

[scythegun]

Then there's still time for you to join the force!

[He laughs once that's out there and leans back a little in his chair.]

It really is good that you've remembered something that isn't terrible. I suppose I was a little bit worried about you!

[he was Very Worried]

[manufactured]

Has it really been that concerning...?

[...It has absolutely been that concerning.]

[scythegun]

Well, yes, it has been. You've received memories that are far worse than mine, ja? As far as I know I haven't killed anyone!

[It's not nearly as light as it could be, but it's not totally serious either. He's not really sure whether to be serious or not and it shows.]

[manufactured]

Thankfully, outside of the murder, most of them have just been aggressively surreal.

[scythegun]

That's good! Well, not good, but it's better than it could be.

[he's trying, okay.]

[manufactured]

...I watched a few people with handguns take down a giant plant creature once...?

[...yeah.]

[scythegun]

[what do you even say to something like that.]

I'm not exactly jealous, but I sincerely wish I had some memories nearly as interesting as that.

[manufactured]

As I've said, not so much terrible as aggressively surreal.

[Anyway.]

...I wouldn't necessarily say that mine are worse or more deserving of concern, however, given that one you've told me about.

[You know, the one where you woke up after you fucking died.]

[scythegun]

...The less I think about that one, the better, honestly!

[...]

But it's the only one I've received like that. Everything else has been either odd or... mildly upsetting, I suppose? Maybe I just need to stop discussing memories with Elda.

[SERIOUSLY SHE'S UPSET HIM TWICE OVER MEMORIES, THAT'S TOO MANY TIMES]

[manufactured]

...That might be a good idea.

[He tries very, very hard to not discuss his memories with Elda.]

Mine don't tend to upset me, which is perhaps saying more about me than I care to think about.

[scythegun]

You've also been trying to put a lot of distance between yourself and them though, ja? Maybe that's it.

[He knows Wesker's a little Weird but he's trying to give him the benefit of the doubt here.]

[manufactured]

Something like that.

[He's quiet for a moment, though.]

The memories simply don't seem upsetting at the time, however. Emotions do come with them once in a while, but I don't ever seem to register being upset or afraid, regardless of what's happening.

The lack of fear is a good thing, I think. The lack of response overall is...strange.

[scythegun]

Ja, it certainly sounds that way. I can't imagine a memory that doesn't have some sort of attachment to it.

You're probably right about the lack of fear, though. Fear's the worst.

[manufactured]

...At least one of the things I've seen was likely deserving of it.

Some of it I can write off as being too adrenaline-fueled for the fear to really activate in any way, which is fine. But there have been a few instances where I'm not sure why that reaction was absent, either.

[scythegun]

Oh? Such as...?

[manufactured]

...I don't recall why I was there, or what I was trying to do. But I remember entering a large underground area of some sort - something that I expected to be a basement of some sort.

It was a torture dungeon.

[Yeah.]

It was subdivided into cells, each of them containing mutilated corpses. Some of them were lying on the floor and left to rot, some of them were chained to the walls still by their wrists and necks. Some weren't human anymore - there were monsters stalking about, similar to that one I told you about fighting once. Lisa.

[...Yeah.]

It seems the sort of thing I should have been troubled by; for some inexplicable reason, I wasn't.

[scythegun]

...Oh.

[What do you say to something like that? No wonder Wesker thinks the person these memories are coming from was a terrible person.]

Was it like you expected it or was it just... something you were fine with for whatever reason?

[manufactured]

[He shakes his head after a moment. Give him a second; this is kind of veering into things that he suspects he should be avoidant about but - ]

...Neither, because I wouldn't say I was fine with it. It was just something I didn't care about.

[...]

I believe I found it "inconvenient."

[scythegun]

"Inconvenient"...

[Man, you really were fucked up, huh.]

You really do have the strangest memories. It sounds terrible.

[manufactured]

It's why I've decided to disassociate from them entirely. Whatever this person's problem was, it's no concern of mine; I have no interest in forming any sort of emotional investment in either his well-being or his actions.

I still want answers for what he's done and why I'm receiving these memories in the first place. And I intend to seek those answers to the best of my ability. But beyond that, there's nothing.