I know better than to try anything too dangerous myself. But at the same time, I've made progress that way that I likely couldn't have gotten away with using strictly the protocols at work.
So it's a fair tradeoff, realy.
[He shrugs a little; it's no big deal, really, as far as he's concerned.]
That said, he goes quiet for a moment at that, taking Jaeger's hand again for the sake of bandaging it.]
I won't be able to do anything like that for a while, I think - I found something odd when I was taking blood samples last time. It's something to keep an eye on, at any rate.
[...He's trying to figure out how to do this without inundating Jaeger with a bunch of terms that he won't get, hang on.]
My immune system is doing something that it shouldn't be. Nothing explicitly worrying yet, mind, but it's producing antibodies in ways that I've never seen before.
It's something that I'm going to look into, but it's...strange, to put it lightly.
They might be, though I'm not certain if I should hope that they are or not.
[It's going to bother him either way; if it's natural, that begs the question of why it's happening at all, but if it's not and it's Retrospec's doing...
...
There's a difference between receiving memories from someone else and physically turning into that person, and he's not altogether certain he likes considering the possibility.]
You don't have to worry about it, at least for the time being.
[He sounds certain of that much, actually, and not like he's telling you not to worry because he doesn't want you to - more like in his professional goddamn opinion, there's nothing to worry about just yet.]
If it were truly a concern, I would have more complications than this - they would be highly visible and difficult to ignore. I feel fine, and nothing seems off with regards to my body's reaction to things, and other tests I've run have come back negative.
If that changes, I'll tell you. But for now everything seems all right, just unusual.
[That everything seems normal, at least. It's good to hear that Wesker's been doing tests on this too. He'll obviously be keeping an eye on it for any changes.]
I really hope it doesn't end up becoming a problem. Please keep me updated on it! Hopefully it won't give you any cause for concern!
I'd like to know if it really was Retrospec's doing. I can't help but be worried about how you'll take that. I do want to know if the situation becomes concerning, but I'm worried about your well-being too.
[He drops his gaze to stare at his hand instead. It's understandable that Wesker doesn't want to think about that possibility. He wouldn't want to either.]
Ja. I don't mind sharing my memories with you, even if they're things I don't want to think about for too long.
["Everything will eventually make sense" has more or less become his mantra with regards to his memories. Whether that's true or not doesn't really matter, right now it's what he has to believe to get through this.]
And of course I'm concerned. I don't want you to suffer because of anything Retrospec's doing.
[We are in so much denial, it's a little obscene.]
...I don't know if I'd say I'm suffering.
[He admittedly doesn't know what to call what he's doing, but "suffering" seems a bit strong.]
I'm...afraid, I think, to some extent. But it isn't debilitating, and I'll manage eventually. It's just a bit much for the time being.
[...And apparently he is going to be the most clinical-sounding person in the world when it comes to his tone while discussing feelings, but at least he's discussing them at all. Surely that counts for something.]
[Hey, you're admitting to being afraid, that's something! It takes a lot for him to admit his feelings in general, so he gets it.]
I know you will. I know you'll be able to handle whatever Retrospec throws at you, but I understand that it's all a little much to take in. I'll be here though - even if there's nothing I can do but distract you from it. I'm good at that, at least!
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So it's a fair tradeoff, realy.
[He shrugs a little; it's no big deal, really, as far as he's concerned.]
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[Wesker wouldn't do anything that'd seriously put him at risk riiiiight...]
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That said, he goes quiet for a moment at that, taking Jaeger's hand again for the sake of bandaging it.]
I won't be able to do anything like that for a while, I think - I found something odd when I was taking blood samples last time. It's something to keep an eye on, at any rate.
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[He'll sit still while Wesker works on the bandages; the worst part's over now and while it still hurts, at least Wesker knows what he's doing.]
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My immune system is doing something that it shouldn't be. Nothing explicitly worrying yet, mind, but it's producing antibodies in ways that I've never seen before.
It's something that I'm going to look into, but it's...strange, to put it lightly.
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[Thanks for dumbing it down for him. He appreciates it.]
If it's something recent do you think Retrospec's involved?
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[It's going to bother him either way; if it's natural, that begs the question of why it's happening at all, but if it's not and it's Retrospec's doing...
...
There's a difference between receiving memories from someone else and physically turning into that person, and he's not altogether certain he likes considering the possibility.]
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[Or at least as natural as it can be. Jaeger shakes his head a bit as if to clear it.]
I hope you figure out what's going on with your blood soon, though.
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[He sounds certain of that much, actually, and not like he's telling you not to worry because he doesn't want you to - more like in his professional goddamn opinion, there's nothing to worry about just yet.]
If it were truly a concern, I would have more complications than this - they would be highly visible and difficult to ignore. I feel fine, and nothing seems off with regards to my body's reaction to things, and other tests I've run have come back negative.
If that changes, I'll tell you. But for now everything seems all right, just unusual.
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[That everything seems normal, at least. It's good to hear that Wesker's been doing tests on this too. He'll obviously be keeping an eye on it for any changes.]
I really hope it doesn't end up becoming a problem. Please keep me updated on it! Hopefully it won't give you any cause for concern!
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[He'll finish up what he's doing, though, with regards to the bandages; there you go.]
Try not to move it too much until it's healed.
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Ja, I'll be careful.
[He rests his hand on his knee once Wesker's done.]
...If you do determine that it's Retrospec's doing you'll tell me, ja?
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[That isn't an answer.]
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...That doesn't answer my question.
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[That isn't an answer.]
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I'd like to know if it really was Retrospec's doing. I can't help but be worried about how you'll take that. I do want to know if the situation becomes concerning, but I'm worried about your well-being too.
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I don't want to consider the possibility in too much depth right now. Do you understand?
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Ja, I do. My apologies.
[He drops his gaze to stare at his hand instead. It's understandable that Wesker doesn't want to think about that possibility. He wouldn't want to either.]
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...It's not something I know how to handle.
[He shakes his head again.]
Being worked up over it isn't going to help anything, nor will it change what's already happened. I know that.
But I don't...know what to do. With any of this.
[...It's not much, but it's probably the most honest he's been about any of this since it started.]
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[In his own way, anyway.]
And I do understand that you're concerned about me.
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["Everything will eventually make sense" has more or less become his mantra with regards to his memories. Whether that's true or not doesn't really matter, right now it's what he has to believe to get through this.]
And of course I'm concerned. I don't want you to suffer because of anything Retrospec's doing.
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...I don't know if I'd say I'm suffering.
[He admittedly doesn't know what to call what he's doing, but "suffering" seems a bit strong.]
I'm...afraid, I think, to some extent. But it isn't debilitating, and I'll manage eventually. It's just a bit much for the time being.
[...And apparently he is going to be the most clinical-sounding person in the world when it comes to his tone while discussing feelings, but at least he's discussing them at all. Surely that counts for something.]
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I know you will. I know you'll be able to handle whatever Retrospec throws at you, but I understand that it's all a little much to take in. I'll be here though - even if there's nothing I can do but distract you from it. I'm good at that, at least!
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[...Wesker.]
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