[That just gets further hesitation out of him, really, before he just kind of...presses on with it; he's already seen Excella, after all, and keeping parts of this in his head has been getting increasingly difficult, and- ]
...I know I've done that to at least two other people. What I did to her. Deliberately infecting them with something that's going to get a result like that.
She was with me for one of them. We were watching it from an observation deck of some sort; I think the person was just...someone we were experimenting on. I don't remember feeling anything at all toward them.
[How does Wesker manage to talk about these things so simply? Jaeger's not sure he could ever deal with something like this.]
I won't ask any more. Thank you for sharing this much with me. I really do appreciate it. I may not be able to do anything to make this any easier, but I can listen, at least.
In a way, I suppose, it's better to talk about it - I would prefer you hear it from me than find out the hard way, if this is the sort of stunt Retrospec is going to be pulling nowadays.
[That said, he isn't volunteering any more information outright, either.]
I don't know if you'll see anything else. I hope you don't, for several reasons.
Well, I won't lie, some part of me hopes I don't either! That was a bit of an exhausting dream, ja?
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But if I do wind up seeing more, I'll do my best to help you through it. I can't guarantee that it'll be quite as successful as what we pulled off today, but I'm here to help!
[He wants to tell him that that won't be necessary, but - they're trying to be honest about these things, Jaeger wants him to say something if it's bad, and this...well.]
...I may need that at some point, then. Not now, but...sometime in the future.
[That seems to go a long way toward relaxing him, though, despite the way that ended; the shift is visible.]
I understand why. And that's all I'll ask of you, then.
[It's something he's said before, in the dream and otherwise, but he does mean it every time - Jaeger is doing more than enough, as far as he's concerned.]
[He's glad to hear it and the relief is obvious. It still takes him a moment to respond to the question, because he has his immediate answer, and then he's got the correct answer.]
I think I will be! It was just sort of a lot today, ja? Will you be okay too?
He pauses once that's out there, though; he isn't entirely certain he wants to offer, but...]
...If you're going to try to be honest with me, the least I can do is try to return it. If there's something you feel that you should know, regarding my memories or otherwise, you can ask me.
...Thank you. I know it can't be easy, given the sorts of things you're remembering. If you really don't want to talk about something, I won't press you... but I appreciate it.
[There isn't anything he's going to ask about right now, at least. He's certainly curious about Wesker's memories, but given the sorts of things Wesker's been remembering it's pretty obvious that it would be difficult to talk about some of them.]
[He appreciates the lack of questions now; this has already been a lot, he doesn't think he could handle further discussion very well. As it stands, the words are...more or less not happening anymore and he's all right with that; Jaeger's words just get a quiet noise of assent out of him before he just lapses into the usual silence.
Last night really was a lot, though in some way he appreciates the discussion; it's not exactly easy to do, but he's fairly sure he understands Jaeger decidedly more, at least, which is at least one good thing to come out of all of this.]
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[He likes you where you are, with regards to that.]
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[But that seems to have settled him back to his usual level of cheer. He's still worried about Wesker, but he seems to be doing well enough, so...]
May I request something of you, though? Will you tell me if those dreams get worse or if you start feeling worse off about all of this?
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That does get him to hesitate, honestly.]
...Perhaps. There are still some things I don't think I can tell you.
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[...]
I know some of it will trouble you, besides.
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[He just wants Wesker to be as okay as he can be, given the circumstances.]
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...I know I've done that to at least two other people. What I did to her. Deliberately infecting them with something that's going to get a result like that.
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...I see... I'm so sorry, Albert.
[That you've been getting memories like this in the first place and that you've had to deal with this all on your own.]
Did they become monsters like her?
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The second was...
[He stops himself. Shakes his head.]
...It was bad for other reasons.
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I won't ask any more. Thank you for sharing this much with me. I really do appreciate it. I may not be able to do anything to make this any easier, but I can listen, at least.
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[That said, he isn't volunteering any more information outright, either.]
I don't know if you'll see anything else. I hope you don't, for several reasons.
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[...]
But if I do wind up seeing more, I'll do my best to help you through it. I can't guarantee that it'll be quite as successful as what we pulled off today, but I'm here to help!
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Thank you, by the way. For helping me with that.
[And for not letting him just die to end it.]
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...Besides, I didn't want you to die, even if it was just a dream.
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It was good of you to talk me out of it.
[Whether he deserves it or not, he...doesn't really want to die, either, if he's honest with himself.]
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Of course, Albert. I'll always be here for that, if you ever need it again.
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...I may need that at some point, then. Not now, but...sometime in the future.
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Of course. I'll always do my best to be here for you. It frustrates me that I can't promise I always will be.
[Because if things really do go south and they end up becoming more and more like their past selves, they probably won't be able to stand each other.]
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I understand why. And that's all I'll ask of you, then.
[It's something he's said before, in the dream and otherwise, but he does mean it every time - Jaeger is doing more than enough, as far as he's concerned.]
Are you going to be all right...?
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I think I will be! It was just sort of a lot today, ja? Will you be okay too?
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[And that's...fairly true, honestly; it isn't like he's got too much of a choice.]
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[And from the sound of it, he genuinely does.
He pauses once that's out there, though; he isn't entirely certain he wants to offer, but...]
...If you're going to try to be honest with me, the least I can do is try to return it. If there's something you feel that you should know, regarding my memories or otherwise, you can ask me.
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[There isn't anything he's going to ask about right now, at least. He's certainly curious about Wesker's memories, but given the sorts of things Wesker's been remembering it's pretty obvious that it would be difficult to talk about some of them.]
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Last night really was a lot, though in some way he appreciates the discussion; it's not exactly easy to do, but he's fairly sure he understands Jaeger decidedly more, at least, which is at least one good thing to come out of all of this.]
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