The more disturbing things I've remembered lately have been terrible on a personal level, as opposed to anything catastrophic. Things like what I did to Jill, or shooting Rebecca simply to prove to Chris that I was willing to. I've remembered doing some hideous things to someone I don't know with Plagas, using the parasites to mutate them in horrible ways.
They're terrible, and in some ways they're more disturbing than what I was trying to do overall because they feel much more personal. But I can rationalize it as only having been one person instead of many. That's repulsive and I know it, but it helps with managing it.
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The more disturbing things I've remembered lately have been terrible on a personal level, as opposed to anything catastrophic. Things like what I did to Jill, or shooting Rebecca simply to prove to Chris that I was willing to. I've remembered doing some hideous things to someone I don't know with Plagas, using the parasites to mutate them in horrible ways.
They're terrible, and in some ways they're more disturbing than what I was trying to do overall because they feel much more personal. But I can rationalize it as only having been one person instead of many. That's repulsive and I know it, but it helps with managing it.