...You don't have to justify it to me, you know. i understand if you hated who I used to be; I did a lot of things back then that warranted the hatred.
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I'll admit that I'm concerned about feeling that way again; I don't think it's likely, but I understand what drove me to it then, and I can't say that it could never happen again here. But back then I didn't have anything left but the hatred; it wasn't a good thing, but I think in a way it's what kept me alive for so long.
I'm not saying it's nothing to be feared; I understand why you would feel that way. But I also understand why I ended up the way I was, and I can't really fault myself for it. I absolutely needed to die by the end of things, but I know why things ended that way.
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I'll admit that I'm concerned about feeling that way again; I don't think it's likely, but I understand what drove me to it then, and I can't say that it could never happen again here. But back then I didn't have anything left but the hatred; it wasn't a good thing, but I think in a way it's what kept me alive for so long.
I'm not saying it's nothing to be feared; I understand why you would feel that way. But I also understand why I ended up the way I was, and I can't really fault myself for it. I absolutely needed to die by the end of things, but I know why things ended that way.