I don't think that such a thing is necessary now. Whether I deserve it or not is another matter - even if it's deserved, I won't say that I need to die, because there's a difference.
[His voice is still even, calm as he considers it; it is a complicated thing, overall.]
By that point, I was both obscenely poisoned and heavily infected with something that was probably going to kill me. The only thing I cared about was killing as many people as I could...or, if I was going to die anyway, bringing as many down with me as possible. Even if I had defeated Chris and his friend, I wouldn't have been myself anymore before long - whether it was physically, mentally or both.
I didn't have anything left, Jaeger. There was nothing there that I could even start to salvage on my own, and I didn't have anyone to pull me back. Even if there was someone left to help me, I wouldn't have wanted it. Saying that I gave up isn't quite right, but it's the closest sentiment to it that I have - I put everything on Uroboros, and when that failed me there was nothing left.
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[His voice is still even, calm as he considers it; it is a complicated thing, overall.]
By that point, I was both obscenely poisoned and heavily infected with something that was probably going to kill me. The only thing I cared about was killing as many people as I could...or, if I was going to die anyway, bringing as many down with me as possible. Even if I had defeated Chris and his friend, I wouldn't have been myself anymore before long - whether it was physically, mentally or both.
I didn't have anything left, Jaeger. There was nothing there that I could even start to salvage on my own, and I didn't have anyone to pull me back. Even if there was someone left to help me, I wouldn't have wanted it. Saying that I gave up isn't quite right, but it's the closest sentiment to it that I have - I put everything on Uroboros, and when that failed me there was nothing left.