[He doesn't write anything back right away; he just reads over what Yeager's written, and he reads it again, and he...really doesn't know what to do with any of it. After a moment, though, he'll start writing again; he isn't altogether sure this is what he wants to be putting down and it shows, but he's doing it anyway because he's just...like that, really.
i get where this makes me asshole of the year, but i figured that you'd be okay if anything happened to me here because of that sort of thing
that maybe you'd just be kind of pissed for a while at the most and then move on because that's just how things work
it wasn't all because of how you act about things like that, though that was most of it - it's hard to know when you actually mean what you say and i just figured that i was convenient for you or something and after all of this was over that would be it, no actual fucks given
i'm also used to that kind of thing being the case, people just moving on from shit
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i think part of it is that t-bird was kind of like that, he'd come to me if his guys died and he'd be pissed off about it and sometimes he'd talk to me about it if i wasn't busy with something else, but he'd always get over it and just go back to doing what he always did
and like i said i get that this sort of thing probably makes me asshole of the year but it didn't really occur to me that he probably did that because i'd give him something to do or i'd tell him i'd fix it and i'd make sure that whoever fucked with him disappeared within the next couple of days
i just kind of figured that's something that certain people do in general because
because i don't know why, i'm a fucking idiot about this kind of thing i guess
so i don't know, i thought you'd be fine? both because i figured you didn't actually give a fuck and even if you did people get over things really quick in my experience so yeah]
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i get where this makes me asshole of the year, but i figured that you'd be okay if anything happened to me here because of that sort of thing
that maybe you'd just be kind of pissed for a while at the most and then move on because that's just how things work
it wasn't all because of how you act about things like that, though that was most of it - it's hard to know when you actually mean what you say and i just figured that i was convenient for you or something and after all of this was over that would be it, no actual fucks given
i'm also used to that kind of thing being the case, people just moving on from shit
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i think part of it is that t-bird was kind of like that, he'd come to me if his guys died and he'd be pissed off about it and sometimes he'd talk to me about it if i wasn't busy with something else, but he'd always get over it and just go back to doing what he always did
and like i said i get that this sort of thing probably makes me asshole of the year but it didn't really occur to me that he probably did that because i'd give him something to do or i'd tell him i'd fix it and i'd make sure that whoever fucked with him disappeared within the next couple of days
i just kind of figured that's something that certain people do in general because
because i don't know why, i'm a fucking idiot about this kind of thing i guess
so i don't know, i thought you'd be fine? both because i figured you didn't actually give a fuck and even if you did people get over things really quick in my experience so yeah]